I really have 2 distinct feelings about the PlayStation 4 announcement. In this particularly post, however, I want to talk about how incredibly trivial I find most of what Sony is offering me this holiday season.
Dear Diary
I use this to keep Michael Taber, a friend who resides many miles away, up to date with my thoughts and habits. You can join him in reading about me, if you want.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Sony Announces The Benchmark
I really have 2 distinct feelings about the PlayStation 4 announcement. In this particularly post, however, I want to talk about how incredibly trivial I find most of what Sony is offering me this holiday season.
Friday, November 30, 2012
My first smartphone.
As a person using a smartphone for the first time, I can't help but do everything possible on it. Therefore I am writing this post on my phone using the S Pen's handwriting Software. I am stunned at how accurate it is. I am also tired of how slow it is.
Swiping on the other hand is stupid fast and eerily accurate. The tech is far beyond that which I care to comprehend, but I can't help but use it as it is nothing short of fantastic. I hope everyone's experience with smartphones is as eye opening and exciting as mine. In the meantime I with continue doing completely unnecessary things on my phone. I do it only because I can.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
What's my Most Important?
The thing is, she likes games. I thank God that she likes games. If she didn't, life would be quite difficult right now. I really do spend a lot of time talking about the minutia of games and game design and balance and blah, blah, blah. It has to be getting to her...
We went out to dinner the other night and I straight up apologized for my recent preoccupation. Even if I were getting paid to make games or play games, I shouldn't talk about it as much as I do now. I explained that I don't want to continue highlighting the differences between us because it makes each of us feel alone. I went on to make defenses, but she had one line, that she didn't say in any kind of argumentative tone or back lashing rudeness.
"You talk about games like our parents say we should talk about Christ"
Saturday, January 21, 2012
My Man-Purse and an Argument for Day-Drinking
About day four of making this drive, I knew I had to do something. I haven't looked back since.
It's a tiny little bag. Just big enough to hold things, not big enough to lug around. I'll never hurt myself carrying it, I'll never lose anything in it. It literally holds my programming text, Tinkers, and what usually is held in my pockets. I never realized how much I prefer to have my pockets free. I don't have to dig around in my pants to get my keys or anything for that matter. When I sit, I don't sit unevenly because of my wallet. I don't have the awkward bunching of material and massive lumps in my pants from keys and a phone. It is, essentially, the most liberating thing I've experienced since I worked my way out of indentured servitude. (seven years I'll never get back, stupid Rifle Shot game at the carnival . . . I know I hit that person balancing on the beach ball and I knew I could do it again.)(I didn't)
Deuteronomy and Day-Drinking make me more excited than I thought they would. See my church is going through Deuteronomy this year. I havn't read Deuteronomy since I got it in my head that I had to read every book of the Bible at least once a year. That was in 2002; I only ever read them all once and it took longer than a year. With Larry Trotter at the helm, I'm confident that I will enjoy this series, I just struggle with the juxtaposition of the Old Testament judgmental creator vs the New Testament graceful savior. I know that God is the same and that the story being told is on purpose, but it is hard to validate the laws in Deuteronomy(bury your feces outside the camp, dammit! I'm walking here!) in the light of, let's say, Romans.
Day-Drinking is my pet elephant in the room. My brother and I started drinking at 10:30 AM on Thanksgiving, and now we kind of do it all the time. Weekends, my sister-in-law's wedding, any day we have free time always turn into this slow creeping drinking fest that leaves us appropriately comfortable with ourselves and those around us. The joy of the Day-Drinking is this: we don't get hammered or have hangovers. We drink until we have a sustainable buzz and then nurse two or three beers or sip some bourbon after that. It's amazing. We never have to worry about what day we're drinking on in case we work the next day, we never wake up not knowing what happened the night before(looking right into your red-bearded face, Michael) and, truthfully, the tasty things we drink never lose flavor, because we never get that far. It's just nice to drink without getting drunk . . .
Monday, August 15, 2011
Bits of Conversation
Today I read about Nebuchadnezzar eating grass like a cow and what not in Daniel 4. This got me thinking about why this is such a weird story. It is crazy to me because what is the king of the largest kingdom in the world doing eating grass? Heck, what is anyone doing walking around like cattle eating grass? But a king, surely, shouldn't be a cow. We have in our minds these preconceived notions of what a king is supposed to be, what is socially acceptable. How I want to apply this is by asking why we're settling for what we've been, when we've been promised so much more! We're co-heirs to the kingdom with the Son of God and we're content mulling over the past, chewing the cud, if you will.
So often I get myself caught in a string of thoughts that remind me of how lowly I am and how much I've failed, but I never get into a train of thought that reminds me of my adopted status to the King of Kings. I never stop and remember what I've been given and, more importantly, what I will be given. Why am I not constantly remembering and worshiping for my inheritance that I never earned, nor deserved. I was a filthy child brought up by the King.
Not only should I focus on these promises and get out of the past, but I should certainly act more like the prince I was raised to be. No longer do I need to dig in the muck and scrape together a living at the expense of others. Instead, I can be bettered by the grace of God and power of the Holy Spirit so that I can act like my Father and like my Savior. C.S. Lewis' image of the children content with cow patties when offered a trip to the beach comes to mind. This ties in beautifully with the end of Chapter 6 of Romans; we are now bound to God and must obey Him. While he did free us from Sin, we must still fill the role of adopted sons and grow up to be just like Daddy.
You Won't Like Me When I'm Angry...
This is a passage that Spurgeon Wrote about Anger. I love Spurgeon. He is able to communicate to me in my preferred style. He is, at heart, a literary speaker. He speaks in beautiful images and uses wonderful literary references in a lot of his sermons and writings. For those reasons, you'll see me lean on him for putting my feelings into words, because I enjoy reading him.
“God said to Jonah, Doest thou well to be angry?”
Jonah 4:9
Anger is not always or necessarily sinful, but it has such a tendency to run wild that whenever it displays itself, we should be quick to question its character, with this enquiry, “Doest thou well to be angry?” It may be that we can answer, “YES.” Very frequently anger is the madman’s firebrand, but sometimes it is Elijah’s fire from heaven. We do well when we are angry with sin, because of the wrong which it commits against our good and gracious God; or with ourselves because we remain so foolish after so much divine instruction; or with others when the sole cause of anger is the evil which they do. He who is not angry at transgression becomes a partaker in it. Sin is a loathsome and hateful thing, and no renewed heart can patiently endure it. God himself is angry with the wicked every day, and it is written in His Word, “Ye that love the Lord, hate evil.” Far more frequently it is to be feared that our anger is not commendable or even justifiable, and then we must answer, “NO.” Why should we be fretful with children, passionate with servants, and wrathful with companions? Is such anger honourable to our Christian profession, or glorifying to God? Is it not the old evil heart seeking to gain dominion, and should we not resist it with all the might of our newborn nature? Many professors give way to temper as though it were useless to attempt resistance; but let the believer remember that he must be a conqueror in every point, or else he cannot be crowned. If we cannot control our tempers, what has grace done for us? Some one told Mr. Jay that grace was often grafted on a crab-stump. “Yes,” said he, “but the fruit will not be crabs.” We must not make natural infirmity an excuse for sin, but we must fly to the cross and pray the Lord to crucify our tempers, and renew us in gentleness and meekness after His own image.
My temper has been running a little hot the last few weeks and therefore I've tried focusing on reading some things that help me to focus on the worthy things(i.e. God's grace and love).
Friday, May 6, 2011
The Gamer, The Dreamer, and The Truth
It started with Christmas last year. My in laws decided to do a dirty Santa/white elephant/whatever you want to call it gift exchange. Rachel and I have a propensity for making gifts because it both saves on monies and makes for great gifts if done properly. So I'm thinking to myself, what can I give that is gender neutral, family centric, and awesome on all counts. First thought I had: a Clue Board Game based on the parent's house. I set to work. Luckily the rule set was already in place, so most of the work was done for me . . . Right?
Well anytime a rhetorical question is asked in that manor, you know the answer is "wrong". The beauty of a Clue Board is how evenly spaced everything is. The game is balanced by virtue of a square house with square rooms. Well most houses, as we know, are not like that. Ranch style houses with basements are certainly not balanced like that.
Needless to say, I had to take quite a few liberties with the Clue formula(things like more weapons than normal to create more variations to make the rooms that are closer together just as difficult to use. I also made liberal use of secret passages and even put in 3 locations in which you can guess the culprit so that one room was never too far from a chance to win. I even had to create help cards to have spaces on the more open parts of the board have a purpose other than empty space.
I say all of this to say: now I'm hooked. Taking a game set and changing it to make it my own was nothing but fun. Since then I made a failure of a pen & paper RPG based on the Harry Potter World. It wasn't a failure because it wasn't fun, I just don't have the friends that would invest into a weekly or bi-monthly meeting to get deeper into the game world.
Now I'm elbow deep in applying the premise I set down in the RPG into a board game that can be played in about 2 hours(or less . . . hopefully). I get to design a new game board, I get to create playable characters, facilitate potential interpersonal dynamics(the game is meant for 4-8 players), balance character abilities, stats, spells, and enemies. I get to pace the game based on the shape and size of the board and how objectives are spread across the game board.
Last week I was kicked in the face with a realization. I don't know if my dream of developing video games and hobby of making games really amounts to much. I can't see the impact of it on society in any kind of worthy way. As I continue my process of sanctification through the power of Christ and the faithfulness of the Holy Spirit, I want to see Christ in my life and to share Him with those around me more. How do games play into that? I get stuck trying to force my spiritual walk into my daily life wondering why they aren't the same. My most hated thought is that I have to give up games because they are of no worth in God's plan. If that's true and it is true that God created me, I would be stuck wondering why God would give me such a desire, appreciation and talent for games.
This has been really heavy on me lately. To think that a hobby that I've had my entire life which has changed into a career dream of mine is a waste of God's time and is just a result of poor stewardship on my part. All I can do is pray that God either show me His plan for my dreams.
Wouldn't it be cool if it was all so easy...